Saturday 26th March 2016

Saturday 26th March 2016

A very cold day today, but we braved the wind and went to the library for the easter egg hunt.  It was pretty good, we (me, TJ and NJ) walked around the library together searching out laminated pictures numbered 1 to 10.  Each picture had an easter item on it, whether it be some Snowdrop flowers, ducklings or some Chocolate eggs.

Do ya know what, this was gonna be another diary entry about what me and the kids have been up to today, a look at how well we are doing … well we aren't!  Louise is demanding that i help her put spyware and other shit on her computer so that she can get something but she wont say what, she has tantrumed cos i asked her to come to me as i had nicola on me and was trying to watch a movie with her on my laptop.  Like i said louise just threw a tantrum! Then when she finally decided to bring it to me the battery ran out and she was shouting at me to get her charger cable from upstairs, i ended up telling her to fuck off and leave me the fuck alone.  Now i feel that no matter how good this morning went its been scarred by her behaviour this afternoon.  It makes me question why i did any of this when i couldve just run away alone and disappeared, cut ties and vanished.  i wouldnt have this stress.  I wouldnt have to entertain 3 kids for 18 days while they had no school.  I wouldnt be trying to let them have fun rather than just sit in their rooms watching youtube and not moving apart from going to the toilet.  So why did i bother planning day trips? Why did i put money aside so they could get out?  I think i will just let them fester for the rest of the holidays.  I will stay in bed and they can fend for themselves.

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